Any prayer warriors out there? We could use all the help we can get right now. If you don't pray, I welcome positive thoughts. It all helps.
I haven't blogged lately, because I'd have to blog every 5 minutes just to keep current with my emotions and thoughts.
We are about 24 hrs. away from getting our son into a 90 day inpatient recovery center and I can tell it's going to be hell right up to the last second. Sometimes he's so compliant and other times the addict behavior is right in my face. Son thinks he's hiding it, but he's not.
Husband and I just want to get him into treatment. We understand that it's just the beginning and it doesn't mean life will be great. But, after having son home for a week now- we need him in recovery FOR US. We need normalcy again. Even if it's short lived. We need a few nights of sleep, that's all we want right now.
I was filled with sadness, worry and fear when son was "on the streets," when they are back home with you (and not recovered) that sadness turns to anger. I understand Dad's (from Mom and Dad's Blog) anger much better now. I'm allowing myself to feel the anger and move on. Our son is still thinking with his addict brain and we'd be foolish to think he's even capable of thinking straight right now.
My prayers are that we get him safely to rehab. Then, my prayers will be that a miracle takes place within those 90 days and something will sink in...
Thank you for reading.
5 weeks ago