I hope everyone has a happy and safe 4th of July!
Once again, I thank each of you for your comments to my last post. It gives me encouragement and support, along with me knowing that I'm not alone. Your comments are priceless to me and I appreciate that you take the time~ I truly do.
I think we are doing pretty darn good! We are heading up to our cabin tonight, a place where we always feel peaceful. Looking forward to that.
I called to check on son yesterday and they said that he made it through detoxing and they are pleased with how he is working his program. They said he's so polite and a real joy to have around. We'll be going down at the end of this month for family time, after his 30 days are up. If all goes well, we'll see him receive his 30 day chip.
I'm trying to just stay in the moment. I'm not awfulizing about what could or might happen. I know the 3 C's, I know this is all up to him. I wish he would've wanted recovery before he had jail looming over his head too (I think Lou mentioned this) I also wish more than anything that he wasn't a drug addict too. I wish a lot of things, but I keep going back to the 3 C's and my only hope at this juncture is that the threat of jail is enough for him to take this seriously. Everyone's bottom is different and I have no idea what his is.
I do believe, no matter what, that some seeds are being planted during his time in this recovery center. That's about all I can hope and pray for.
For now, we've reached that balance of remaining carefully optimistic. Hoping for the best but mentally prepared for the worst (while not dwelling on the worst). It's a hard balance to achieve, but we are doing our best- just as we hope our son is doing.
Filled with hope,
4 weeks ago