Friday, January 22, 2010

Out of the loop

I feel out of the loop, of my own doing...

I don't even know where to begin.

Son is still living with us, since the week before Christmas.

Son #2 moved back home. We are a family of 4 again.

We've had some great times this past month, for which I'm very thankful.

Today son asked for $20, and I said no. That's the short version.

I held my ground and I'm proud of myself for that- it wasn't easy.

I hope to get back to blogging soon...

But, for now, I will end with things I love, (not in order)

I love my job
I love my co-workers
I love my clients
I love my husband
I love my sons
I love all of my family
I love my friends
I love nar-anon
I love God
I love my progress
I love the sound of rain (even tho I should be tired of it by now)
I love our dog
I love that my mom instilled the power of prayer and I miss her dearly

I hate addiction, but the things and people I love outweigh my hate.


  1. Thanks for you comment on my blog.

    I love your "love" list.


  2. Good to see you Chai! And good for you saying no to the $20. I love your list too.

  3. I love your list too :) Glad the love column outweighs the hate column. You know, seeing your dog on the list, reminds me just how much help my dogs have been to me this past year. Such great creatures God gave us :)

    God bless.

  4. Big Hugs! You've been missed! We're drying out here today - the river through the garage has finally slowed to a trickle! Hope you're seeing some sunshine soon too! Praying for you that God will give you the strength you need! That $20.00 thing made me smile! I have a hard time wtih that too, but I'm getting better (meaner, says my addict with a grin!) at it!!

  5. I would have such a struggle being a family of 4 again. As much as I love my 2, I'm so used to the order of things now. Our son moved back home 4 times...I have to say that there were no good times when he was at that stage of life...and we finally told him to leave. It was both easy (I knew it was the right thing...and terribly difficult...I was scared for him). I'm sure you had that struggle with the money. Sometimes you have to say "no" and you can feel really good about doing so.

    You have a wonderful list of things to love.


  6. I hate addiction too. Sounds like you've got lots of choices to make every moment of every day. Take care of yourself.

  7. Glad that you have those boundaries and lots of gratitude in place. Each is necessary.

  8. I use to think it was not okay to "hate" anything. Then my son's addiction came into my life and I changed my mind about hate. I do love your "love" list. You continue to be in my prayers.

  9. I love your list. My gratitude list is a constant work-in-progress, meaning sometimes I have it and sometimes I lose it. But I keep working to hold on to it, because I know it's there.

  10. Gratitude brings such peace in our hearts. I've been out of the loop, too. Praise God that you are a family of four again! What joy that must bring to your heart. I pray that God will fill you with courage (to say no), hope and that your son will find victory in the war against addiction. We so need to get together. Lunch? I'll bring the garbanzo beans! LOL Monday or Wednesday could work.
    God bless you!

  11. In the loop or out, you remain in our prayers!

    Cheri and Wayne