Friday, February 25, 2011

Welcome to prison...

Haven't heard from my son, but a friend of his called and he was picked up last night (caught shoplifting), and then they searched the motel room and found it all! His first felony(s).....

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Heart still breaks

My son is still out on his own, and still using. We see him a few times a month and he recently came by to visit his Grandma who was here from out of state. He is currently staying at a local motel and he does odd jobs to just get by. He called this morning to ask if I needed my car washed, or anything else done around the house because he needed to pay for his room by 11AM today. I told him I would talk to his Dad and call him back. I didn't really need to talk to my husband, but I just needed time to think... I chickened out and sent him a text rather than call him, and told him that I didn't have any work for him- but that I will always give him a ride to a shelter, a rehab, or take him to eat. He texted me back, "Ok. Thanks Mom, I love you too."

I can't stop crying. I don't regret what I did. My heart just simply is still breaking over his addiction....